I rarely ever complain about being single, in fact i never even do. But recently realizing that i’m about to graduate high school without never being in a relationship makes me feels empty..actually, now that i think about it, i had more time to focus on school and drawing. You know what, that’s a damn accomplishment right there! I really did not need any high school drama. In fact i’m one of the lucky few at my school to not even participate in any of that completely unnecessary crap. Omggg, honestly, i’d consider my high school career a personal success, :D No unstable emotional relationships, no unnecessary love-life stress, no drama- just me, my education, and my friends and I making the best out of our young lives. Oh yes, high school did good to me, :]

Once again i totally got side tracked AGAIN from going from talking about being single to high school being a success. I guess there was some connection, but yeah, ahah!

Omggg, it’s slowly coming to me that i’m graduating! Ugh, well it hit me a long time ago, in fact multiple times, but i just never thought deeply about it. Well i have, but not to the point i realize it’s REAL. Like, this is REAL, it’s happening!? All those movies and shows of our favorite characters graduating..it’s happening to me now, like damn where did time go!? Anyways, i’m not gonna make this blog hella long like the last time. But yeah, i’m coming to that realization that it’s all ending soon, and ima be at college before i know it.

Ok, i mightus well add a story, aha. It’s funny cause honestly when I was in what, middle school? maybe even Elementary school, at times whem i felt lonely I would think like “I’m gonna be going to college in the future anyways, why should anything going on right now matter.” Boy was I naive as fuhhhh. Everything from that point on has made such an impact on me to become who i am today. Seriously tho, if you’re reading this and you’re about to enter high school or middle school or whatever, you are going to want to regret the things you wish you could have done. I honestly regret a lot of things but if i had the chance to change them i wouldnt cause i realize i wouldnt be where i am today, even if it is at a higher level. God put me where i am today because His plan for me is where i probably would least expect it. My faith has lead me this far to the point where i’m at a bridge in my life and i need to cross over the river of memories and start off new..well not too new..NEW as in a fresh start in education, not changing as a whole new person cause otherwise that’d be ridiculous, aha. Damn, i ended up making this long…whatever, more for me to look back upon when i visit these blogs a year from now, aha. Anyways, yeah, graduation is just around the corner.. High school in all honesty, was fun/emotional/at times stupid/rewarding/ but overall worth it. For me i wasnt one of those drama-filled people who had problems with hella people, so i had a friggen great time! ahaha. Let’s just see what college has in store for me, :]

Since it’s my last week of officially attending high school, I made a little list of the things i want to do before i leave. I’ll still be in Vallejo over Summer, but after that i’m gonna be out in San Jose for school. Soooo, before i graduate, I’m going to:

• Write a thank you letter to all my close teachers throughout my whole high school life.
• Try to get all my keychain requests done before i probably never see those people again, ahah
• Finish editing my unfinished vlogs, cause there’s HELLA of em i have yet to do,
• ok, wtfuh. i had a whole list planned out just earlier but i totally had a brain fart..

ANYWAYS..dang, it bothers me now that i cant remember..Ok, well before i get side tracked, i would like to say that High School was definitely a life changing part of my life. It’s hard to believe that it’s ending soon, and that the next 96 hours will be my last moments as a Senior. Before i know it, i’ll be walking across that stage during graduation, receiving my diploma along with my friends…gahh, my friends… My relationships in high school are probably most of what holds me back from wanted to move on. I know a hand full of friends of mine who will be attending SJSU with me, but none of my close-close friends for they will be almost two to how many hours away from me. Honestly, I think it’s more that just bitter sweet. It’s nice to know that all my hard work has lead to this for me to graduate and attend an awesome college, but when you’re put in a group of students who you’ve probably been with since Kindergarten, and those you meet along the way, it’s really hard to have to see them go. Yeah, some may disagree and i’m probably over thinking this whole situation, but even with keeping in touch with friends far away isn’t gonna be that easy if we’re all out and about with our lives. I just hope that wherever I go, God will help me find my way and meet new people. High school wasn’t meant to last forever; it’s kinda like metamorphosis, the stage where you find out who you are. I guess it’s time to face the fact that this chapter of my life is soon to be over, and i gotta face the fact that i must move on eventually. It was a great run…ugh dammit, i feel like crying. how the hell did i get from making a list to venting about leaving high school!? ahah, oh well. I was actually gonna make this a separate post but it’s all good. Ok, ima head off to bed now before i get my tears all over my laptop, aha.