So at the end of my last period class, biology. Our teacher posted up some pictures from the coastal clean-up we did last saturday. and the first picture was ME smiling…and it was on a projector so it was shown throughout the whole class. so she tried going to the next picture, and she ended up accidentally ZOOMING IN into my face. then she accidentally FLIPPED the picture. so everone got to see my face 360 degrees. then she zoomed out and went to the next picture. tried going to the next picture, and went BACK to the picture of ME AGAIN. then so she decided to just put it on a small slideshow..then it ended and went back to my picture….
i felt like one of those people in those shows where thier baby pictures get shown in front of crowds. well i actually was laughing the whole time. i guess when i’m so embarrased, i break out laughing. haha. let’s just home this never happens again. =D
i’ve known you for how long? like 8 years in a half probably. i know we’re gettin older and stuff, and changing things in our lives, but it seems as if your changing so much i dont even know who you are anymore. i ask you at school if something;s wrong when your down, and you neglect to respond. you always tell me that “oh, we’re brothers and sisters in Christ, you can tell me anything”, and i tell you. but when i ask you, you just stay silent, walk away, and ignore me. i dont know what’s wrong with you anymore or if your just goin through a hard time with something. but this has been going on for like what, 5 months or so? or maybe even more. i hope your ok or will at least get better of whatever your going through. we’re prayer partners forever. not just at church, not just at school, and definantly not just “cause”. you can tell me things, and i wont tell anyone else. even though you dont have a Tumblr and cant read this, i just hope you know how i feel towards you by just when we’re passing by at school. i really just dont want to lose someone so valubale to life, that now they just think they’re “trash”, or a “mistaken creation of God”. cause that’s just all so absurd and stupid that, iono. you’ve never been like this before. i feel as if i dont even care for you as much as i did before since your actin so….poorly attitude.
i hope you get better. as long as your ok, im good with that. but if your not, than what can i do to change you.
i dont know if it’s just me, but i feel as if like some little parts of my life are changing.
one of them is that i have to wake up way more earlier for drivers ed, and im gonna be able to drive soon.
two, is that i’m not spending as much time with my grandparents like before, but we’re visiting them like every saturday.
im getting older…T.T
im getting waaaaay more homework
im getting into more clubs and stuff.
lastly, ok, this one like bothers me the most. so i had this friend i practically grew up with in church, and lately he’s been actin the most emo you could think of, and has been having the most weirdest of mood swings. it;s like, ever since we had a praise ralley, or somewhere through our PID, he;s been acting so…ugh, iono how to explain it. it just bothers me and a lot of others. it seems as if he’s changing so much he can;t hadel it or whatever. to much to explain and say. it;s like i’m loosing a really good nice friend who was like my best friend before. and now i feel like just punching him in the face. ok, maybe not punch. iono, maybe like…a verbal fight. i have no idea. it’s way more complicating then you think. i just dont want him to go the wrong path.
and yeah. that;s all. i just feel as if im turning a page through my life story, and it;s starting an introduction to a new chapter….whatever that meant. i just miss the old days….
So today i did coastal clean-up with my class. it was hecka fun, but hecka nasty. haha. there was mud and moss everywhere near the lake and everything. haha. a lot of people slipped. thank goodness i didnt. haha. ok, maybe i feel, but not like….ok fine i did slip. but only one time. unlike my friends who tripped and slipped like multiple times. hahaha! Maria you cluts.
then we went out for a little free picnic after it all…i took like 7 sandwiches. hahahaha! hey, i was hungry. then we played around a little at the water front. or near the waterfront. iono where we were but i do know we were near the water. haha. after it all i was supposed to go with my mom to pick up food from my auntie’s store, but it was to late for me to get home so i just decided to rest. i needed to take a shower anyways. haha. then we’re takin family pictures later cause my grandma planned it, Lord knows why. iono. haha. but yeah. that’s how today’s gonna go. we’re probably gonna go out and eat while we’re all together. haha. so that’s my day past and planned. honestly, i would practically just have woken up around this time on a normal saturday. kinda. hahaha!
"The past is History, tomorrow’s a mystery, today’s a gift, that’s why they call it ‘present’"- Kung Fu Panda. hahhaha. it’s so true though. =]
So i was just trying my tennis swings in my room. then i hit my ceiling and my sister hears it. and im like….”uh- oh.” haha. i think there’s a small black mark on the my room’s ceiling now….great. hahaha
So tomorrow i’m doing coastal clean-up for my bio class since we get extra credit and we get our community service time.
Then we’re takin pictures of our family cause my grandma planned it, Lord knows why.
Then Sunday is the first of Religious Ed! =D woo-hoo. im gonna be TAC. =] Also EMing for mass that day.
Then Monday might be my first day of drivers ed since it was “full” but i might have a chance still if someone doesnt make it then. it’s at 6:50 am. and if not i can always take it in the Winter. at least by then i can be close to being 15 in a half. ;D
Ever get that feeling when you feel as if you did something bad and then people dont know what really happened so then they give you stuff. well i dont know how to explain it really. so i posted a blog a pretty long time ago about how i got a bad grade in my Humanities class, which isn’t like me cause i dont do bad grades, and then that was about on the day they sent it out. so ever since then, my grade began to rise up even more. the bad thing is that the bad grade before was sent as a progress report. and of all the times it just had to go out, it just had to be on my birthday. or at least around that time.
Ever since i knew the letters were gonna come out sooner or later, my family’s been giving me all this nice stuff and everything for my birthday. and now i feel as if i dont diserve it cause i got a (6th letter of the alphabet) in a class. and i cant TAKE IT ANYMORE! haha. the guilt is eating me alive!!! i just want the progress report already so i can explain everything to my family already so that i can just get this guilt out before more stuff happens. then i can go back to living a happy life. =]
So now im just waiting for the dang thing to come in the mail so i can get it over with already. T.T
P.S. of all the times for when i study a lot and go on a break, my sister just had to come in for when i wasnt studying and was on the computer as a break. Now she probably thinks as if i dont study and have been lying. serioulsy though, of all the times!!! why couldnt it have been when i was studying! D=< and that was like the whole day after school too….